I don’t really have the words. Right now, anyways. I’d like to talk about what the last year of making videos every week means to me in a broad sense, but I just don’t think I’m ready. So I’ll just stick to the topic at hand, my Week 50 video.
There’s was no way that I would’ve found satisfaction in my last piece without following the same creative guidelines I put for myself from the start; try something new. In this case, something new was more of a narrative piece, a thing I’d set my sights on early but found out how hard it would be to pull off. Enter Grant Spanier, new friend, eager collaborator, talented, talented dude. I asked for help and he showed up. I told him I wanted a story seemingly unrelated to me or my project, but one that touched on sentiments of sacrifice and fear, satisfaction and withdrawal, being young, looking forward. Those things really spoke to me, and I thought they would speak to the little audience I’ve gathered during this. I think in the end we made a story about someone struggling for control, one where she ultimately realizes that she doesn’t really deserve to have control. That’s sort of how I feel now, it’s healthy mix of enlightenment and fear.
I’m absolutely buzzing with gratitude for everyone who helped on this last one, specifically Grant, Samirah Abu-Nassar, and Cullen Fitzpatrick. We screened this guy to a large group of friends, family, and peers last Friday and it was one of the most rewarding things I’ve ever experienced. Can’t believe how lucky I am to be in this place, with these people, doing what I’m doing.
Expect some photos, recaps, a reel, and some final words about this project within the next few weeks. But if you miss that post, I’ll say thank you now for showing up to this site every week and being apart of this stupid, stupid thing I chose to do. I have a lot more free time as it stands, I want to hang out with all of you.